“Folks are usually about as happy as they make their minds up to be.”
― Abraham Lincoln
It’s been nearly a week since my Fiverr account was unceremoniously deleted, and I lost £2000 worth of work, and today, my glorious readers, I woke up happy for the first time in months.
On the face of it, happiness should be something off in my far, far distant future. My father has a fatal brain tumour, my partner’s grandfather has terminal bone cancer, and I’ve lost the primary source of my income and all the exposure that comes with it. On top of that, I’m on medications that make it almost impossible for me to eat more than a handful of food at a time.
On paper, it’s not a good time for me.
Yet still, this morning, I woke up with a smile on my face and a fuzzy cat nuzzling beside me. I listened to the birds singing out of my window and felt the sun shining on my face.
I was at peace.
There, at that moment, I had let go of fear and embraced the now. I was happy, and no one could take that from me.
I wasn’t afraid because there was nothing to fear. The future hadn’t happened yet, and living in an imaginary scenario served me no purpose. The present was what mattered. The present was where I was living, and the present was what I was in charge of.
I have no control over what will happen to my family, friends, loved ones or strangers, but I do have control over myself.
Now that I am no longer entrusting the future of my business to an outside entity, I’m more confident than ever in its success. I know that I am the best at what I do, and I have hundreds of testimonials to prove it. I’m on the journey of a lifetime, and I intend to live it my way, here with you, right now, and you can too.
Take a deep breath, look around you and find one thing, just one, that makes you marvel. Whether it be the fact that a tiny little ant can scale a wall a thousand times its size or that you can hold a device that has more information in it than has ever been accessible to one human throughout the entire course of our history, just stop and take a moment to truly appreciate it.
We all have a finite amount of time. We all will end, but in that, there is glory. For if everything is infinite, then noting truly matters.
You exist in the now. You’re here reading this, and that is a beautiful thing.
YOU are in charge of your fate. YOU hold the key to your happiness, and YOU have the ability to unlock it.
Now, I’m going to go and write porn; what’re you going to do with your day?
Julia X
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